JUST . . . .

I am creating this just because I wanted to share what I feel right now, my views, and just . . . . wanted to share and express something.

Have you ever felt that even though you are surrounded by people, friends, family and loveones, you still feel alone?

You laugh, interact and go on with your daily schedule and yet you are still empty and you feel that no one is there for you....

I am at this stage right now, but I am not lost and empty.. just deep in thought kind of way. I laugh because I have too, I listen and get along just as a normal, ordinary individual would do.

Why am I this way.... because I care, I listen and share their burdens, in short if someone needs a sounding board I'm there, I would hear them whine, hear them about their woes, problems and everything. While I add these things up to my own worries and problems.

Funny thing though, when its me who needs someone to JUST listen to me,nobody's there for me. I asked the LORD to forgive me for feeling this way, but sometimes, I just wanted someone tangible and interactive (LOL) to be there and listen to what's on with my life, how do I feel etc.

Surely I have friends but I don't know I feel that they won't understand me. It's not that they are aliens or something :))) Wala e.

Maybe I am being too contained, or choosy or privy to my feelings, I don't, someday I might find someone to share my thoughts, listen, as in really really hear me out and talk too.

As for now, I will content myself in writing my feelings out. That's why I've created this post, it's my private haven to express myself. A release.

And to all those who share the same feelings such as I do... Just hold on and pray, God is always there to listen. How the Lord will answer back its up to him how he will deal with us.